Lord, please help me to stop shoulding on myself.
Really, it’s become a terrible habit.
I should myself about what I’m not doing enough of.
….. And I should myself about what I’m doing too much of.
I should myself about how I should spend weekends, holidays and the summer.
In fact, it seems I should myself about everything these days.
But Lord, I honestly don’t know what expectation all of this shoulding is trying to “help” me to meet. Who am I trying to should myself into being?
And Lord, deep down, I know shoulding doesn’t help. It doesn’t make me change — or make me want to change. All it does is leave me feeling paralyzed and ashamed.
So Lord, I’m asking you to help me to stop.
Please give me the strength to stop shoulding at myself every single moment of the day.
Because all of these shoulds only steal the joy of each beautiful, regular moment of my life.
And all of these shoulds only serve as a punishment for falling short of some strange, abstract standard that no one has for me — not even You.
So Lord, help me to stop shoulding and to stop being ashamed of the woman You created me to be, who is doing the best she can to rely on Your Spirit and do the next right thing.
Instead, help me to live a joyful, holy life overflowing with Your love.
Please help me, Lord, to stop shoulding myself.